The magic beans

The ultrasound pictures are at the end of the post. Fuzzy little beans!!!

I have to tell you, when I saw those little hearts beating it almost stopped mine. I have read a thousand times that it’s truly an amazing thing to see, then when she put on the doppler I just started to cry. There is nothing like it when they are yours and they are alive. The thought of twins doesn’t even scare me anymore. Just the fact that they are healthy and growing is such an unbelievable feeling. Now there are so many things to think about.

I have told almost all the ladies at work and my boss, and I have gotten a great response. Most of the women here know to one degree or another that I’ve had problems, and it’s obvious something has been going on, since I am almost 42 and have no children. When I first started down this road, I worried a lot about how this office would react to the idea of me using a sperm donor that I have never even met. As I have said before, it is pretty conservative around here. But now that I’m here, I find that I just plain don’t care what anyone thinks, and I feel that people who are happy for me are going to bypass their judgment because I’m just so happy.

I’m still worried, thinking about the risks I have to face now. But I have come to the conclusion in this life that the mind is truly the creator of the future. Positive thinking and prayer really work if it is something that that God has planned for me. I like to think of God as my partner, He can make anything happen as long as I’m willing to do the work and I’m ready. Well, I am willing and I am ready. And it’s probably a good thing that this spiritual renewal is coming about, because I have a very strong feeling that I’m going to need God more than ever now.

I also believe that I’m having twins because T wanted it so bad, I know she has been praying night and day for this.

So many thanks to all who’ve prayed for me, who have supported me through this. Oh, and I have one more request: do you babysit twins?

Comments

[Tena]

Do you remember the little woodstock you used to draw? That is the first thing I thought of when I saw my first ultrasound. She looked just like Woodstock! Of course I still have the pictures and one day I will remember to bring them with me when I come out. Babysit TWINS...I don't think so but I can buddy up with one of your other friends and we can be a tag team! I may be able to handle them before they start to walk but after that...well you have been around Ashleigh. Love ya. Take care of you and I will talk to you soon, Tena.

[EverestGirl]

Yaaaay. So happy for you and the twins! Thanks for the note...I just couldn't wait. Will be fun to follow you through this adventure to parenthood.

[Rebecca]

Twins!!! Amazing. I am happy for you on multiple levels. One because you have the opportunity that you have wished for so long. Two because you are having a double dose of fun with two babies. Three because you deserve all the happiness that you will have when those little beans grow up and say, "I love you mommy!" And many many more things. As a mom, I know some of the joys and sorrows that you are experiencing and will experience as time goes on. It is the most wonderful thing in the world!!! Yeah!!! I will have to check your blog often to keep updated on the progress of the little tiny babies. :) May God continue to watch over you and answer your prayers. Love, Becca

[Natalie]

Congratulations! They're beautiful!

[Milenka]

Congratulations! I look forward to following along with your blog. Your twins are due on December 10, right? So are mine. My fingers are crossed for a smooth ride for us both.

[Roni]

Hi Melissa - I followed you to your blog!!! What wonderful news, and isn't it wonderful to see the heartbeat (plural in your case!!!!) I am SO happy for you!

Roni

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