I have said that I’m feeling better and better, but every
once in awhile I still get an awful row of days. Like right now for instance.
My allergies are driving me nuts, and my exhaustion has been back for the last
two days, really teeing me off. Plus the hormones or SOMETHING is making me
blubber like a three year old. I’m not kidding, each day I find myself in tears
over something really stupid. On the days I feel great, nothing can get me
down. I want more days like this.
So anyhow, a couple of really great things have happened:
Cecily has had her baby, which you may already know about, but I tell you, it
really helps to hear her say that all this crap is worth it. REALLY love what
she named her baby (hmm I wonder why). And just think, I get a double dose of
joy. About time if you ask me. Also, a lovely lady on my message board is
finally pregnant with twins after EIGHT losses. She’s 8w1d and I really think
both of hers are going to make it. I just cry a river when I read stories like
this, are you guys tearing up too with joy and happiness for me? (Especially
those of you who are pregnant?)
I really appreciate the comments on my last post, it really
means a lot to get that kind of support. I truly could give a jack’s ass about
what anyone thinks, and actually look forward to hauling someone’s ass into
court if they give me any shit. A little snarky today, are we? YES WE ARE.
Anyway, you guys are the best, it really makes me feel good to know people
admire me out there. Sometimes I do get sad when I think about my children not having
a father. But I’d rather they had none than some loser asshole who made them
feel like a burden. I’m certainly not opposed to marriage, but you better
believe it will be with someone who wants them as much as I do.
I’ve made a deal with myself to spend more time on this blog
talking about the unique issues I’m facing. I have been so caught up in my
pregnancy and the hell these last few months have been. Although I keep hearing
I got off easy. I haven’t actually tossed my cookies yet (knock on wood), but
the exhaustion, allergies, and bullshit over missing time at work has been a
drag. I think it’s almost over. So you guys can look forward to better posts
and hopefully some exciting info re: baby genders and movement in the next
month or two. Please comment! I promise I’ll be better at responding. Thanks
for reading.
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