JO's brother has died. He died on January 5 and I just found out about it yesterday. I have been weeping off and on since I found out. I also emailed JO to offer my condolences. Of his five brothers, Bobby and I were the closest. He was my friend. I always hoped someday we would be able to be friends again. But I wasn't able to forgive JO and I didn't think I could see his brothers without hurting. I missed all of them, but especially Bobby. We were close, the same age, and I adored the way he cared for his little girl when she was a baby. In fact, I had been thinking of him a great deal since my babies were born.
It just hurts because his death was painful and he suffered a great deal. I won't go into the details here, but it is just heartbreaking to think of him hurting that much. He was a kind, gentle soul, not at all like JO, and we bonded because we both had to deal with the wrath of JO's temper. He was a sweet, sweet person. I am just so sad. We had so many fun times. Thinking of them just makes me sadder.
I had already realized that I didn't hate JO anymore. These babies have filled my heart with so much love that all the hate just got pushed out. I had not planned to contact him, but when I did, my heart ached for his loss. Bobby was like a son to him, 9 years younger, and raised him since their father died shortly after Bobby was born. He was happy for me, we exchanged the typical "nice to hear from you" rhetoric, and that was all we typed to each other.
The unfairness of life sometimes makes me wonder, WHAT THE FUCK??? I know there's a reason but it had better be good. In the meantime I hope I get to see him again. This song by George Strait is for you, Bobby. See you on the other side! (don't listen unless you have kleenex handy.)
i'm so sorry for your loss, friend......
rae
Posted by: broken | February 27, 2007 at 02:51 PM
worried about you......hope you post soon.
hugs
rae
Posted by: broken | March 07, 2007 at 02:28 PM