I realize I run the risk of getting dooced * with this post and others, but to tell you the truth, I really don't care. Things have been pretty interesting since I returned to work. It was okay at first, but now I truly know that it wasn't just post partum, laziness, or extreme love for my babies that made me dread it so. It is really a dreary place to be. Boring. Slow. And I'm continually subjected to exhausting complaining from everyone. I swear, for what all these people make, I have never been around such whiners, backstabbers, and generally unappreciative people who talk shit much more than they work. It's hard to believe sometimes that these are all professionals. Either that or I'm just more sensitive to it now because I'm just so happy.
I did get an online job, I am working part time now for a well-known .com that I cannot disclose as per the contract. It will be a probationary position for 90 days, when both parties will decide if full time is appropriate. The pay is also temporary; it will almost double after a long-term contract is signed. So we'll see, but I am really excited about it. I just have to figure out how I'm going to take care of medical insurance for us all since I will be an independent contractor. That is going to be a headache. I also have some pressing dental work to get done before I give notice. The state of California is not big on insuring college graduates that walk away from a very good paying job. Understandable. But in order to get the babies covered, they have to go without ANY coverage for 90 days, which I'm not willing to do.
As for the child care situation, I am amazingly lucky in that I have a wonderful lady who I've known for 30 years who completely loves the babies, is always buying stuff for them, and actually offered to watch them for nothing. Of course I'm paying her but it really turned out to be a blessing since I was more wracked over leaving them with strangers and not knowing how well they were being cared for. But I totally trust her, even though it kills me to leave them for 9 hours. It takes me an hour or two to just get to normal so I can work, not that there is much work to do. Still playing solitaire.
In much happier and more fun news, the babies are both amazing. Not only are they huge, but they are crossing milestones.
Dylan loves to grab at everything, and he's getting very good at holding on to items for a short time. He is so sweet and is just the hungry little monkey. He laughs, and talks to me alot. He is very long and skinny, and is wearing 6-9 month stuff.
Tori is grasping things too, she pulled her pacifier out of her mouth yesterday, looked at it, and put it back in her mouth. She has discovered her voice, and is practicing that little girl scream that curdles the blood. Hehe. She also rolled over from belly to back today. She is just so yummy, like a little butterball. It really is fun dressing her up, although I never thought I'd be that way with a girl. But it's all pink, ribbons, and bows. Um, ya. Who'da thunk it??
They sleep very well now, just waking up once a night, and we spend so much more time playing, singing, laughing. They really notice one another a lot now; in fact, I realized that I cannot separate them or they get upset. Every morning I put them together and they play with each other, reaching out hands and kicking. It is so sweet, especially when they talk and laugh together. Now you tell me it's more fun sitting in some boring meeting listening to old fat bald guys drone on and on about useless TPS reports and mission statements? I'm sorry, but it's just REALLY hard for me to get excited about the cost analysis I did; I'd rather play peek a boo and patty cakes. Call me crazy.
I don't look forward to being broke, but I will say it again: they will only be little once.
*I haven't visited Heather's site in a long time,and I just think it's achingly sweet that she is now fully supported by the website that once got her fired.
i had a great time looking at your pics. good luck in your new venture. think about you a lot. hope you are holding up well. your babies are just gorgeous.
hugs
rae
Posted by: Rae | March 28, 2007 at 07:49 PM